Wednesday, February 24, 2010


Last night after getting home a little after midnight, i got a text that did not bring good news. It was from my camper's mom saying "he's gone Ogo". That was it, just like that the kid was gone. This is very very sad news but i believe he's gone to a place where he is resting in peace.

It sucks even more because i spoke to his mom yesterday morning asking when i can come visit him since they said he had taken a turn for the worse. I didn't realize how "worse" until she sent me a text back saying "feel free to come, jonathan doesn't have many days left". I knew time was of the essence but yesterday was slammed so i told her i would come either last night or today. So much for that.

It's crazy because on my way home last night i was thinking of what to bring along when i go there this morning. And i thought of bringing the Michael Jackson This is It dvd and sitting down and just watching it with the kid.

Maybe ten minutes later was when i got the text from his mom while doing some laundry that my kid jonathan was gone.

I know it's a really tough time for his family, please keep them in your thoughts and prayers, I will be doing the same. I believe he is resting in the arms of The Father.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

New Week

Funny, last night i found myself playing basketball. Yes, me. Like i always say when the hooping topic comes up, a man's got to know his limits. And basketball is definitely, as some famous guy said, above my pay grade. I finished the evening with a jammed finger and i rolled my ankle. Congratulations. I did go home a bit satisfied that it wasn't as terrible as it could have been.

I'm looking forward to this week. I think it's going to bring on some good things. Kicking off a new lifegroup tuesday, and then canvas is moving to sunday nights this week and a couple of other things will make this week a pretty solid one.

My scripture of the week via Daily Bread: "We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurace develops character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment". (Romans 5:3-5)

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

What's up World?

What's up world? i'm back here again, it's been a little bit since i last gave any of my schpill. Things have been pretty good of late, i can't complain. Yesterday, i had to turn down the opportunity to go to Kenya for a missions trip later in the year. it kinda sucked but i think it was quite necessary. i'm trusting that i'll be well into the new gig by then (august) and i just don't think it's so smart to go in asking for 12 days off when you're still fresh in the sea. Hopefully i'll be able to go next time around when i more settled and have gotten my life together. I'm still hoping to be able to take five days off for Camp Quality in July; at least that's only a week, so hopefully they can understand but ten working days, errr i dunno what i would say if i was the hiring manager. You'll have to be the best thing since sliced bread for me to agree with that. I think i'm pretty darn close to sliced bread, but i'm not there yet.
I have been reviewing my job searching strategy and looking at ways to tweak it. the saying goes "good things come to those who wait" but then doesn't the bible also say "the violent take it by force" (and yes it was speaking of the "violent" in a positive light). So i'm trying to find that perfect balance/sweet spot between the patience and the taking. I've always felt uncomfortable calling offices about job openings but that's just a step of hard faith i'm willing to take. it's funny because i got an article in the mail today talking about how saying To Whom It May Concern or Dear Sir/Ma on cover letters may be the kiss of death. Hmm who woulda thought. I just assumed to do that when no hiring manager was listed on the job posting. But it talked about how one should call to find out who the hiring manager or who the position reports to. It said HR people look at To Whom It May Concern as a sign of laziness. Wow, that was a smack in my face. Good thing i hadn't sent in the application for this really really good position that i saw. Cross my fingers and trusting God I get some favor for it. But lately i do feel like i can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm thinking and believing that things are getting ready to look up and sooner than later, i'll be done with this rollercoaster ride of job hunting. Either way, i have to take a upbeat look because it's not like any other decision, i can't just stop looking for a job LOL.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


Haha! So democrats can't even win in Mass. what a joke! I find it so hilarious and unbelievable that this dude scott brown came out of nowhere and beat up on the dems in their stronghold. So much for hope N Change. Well i'll toast to the begining of the end of hope N change. This is definitely great news! Please, more from where this came from!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Follow-up to Yesterday

It was like pastor joel read my post last night. How crazy? His message was about not allowing your circumstances, dreams and issues overwhelm you. pretty legit stuff. Couple of lines i remember him throwing out there: "you have to put the things that mean the most to you on the altar". "Anything you have to have to be joyful, the enemy will use against you". I mean not that I feel like a need my new gig to make me happy, i don't. Most people wouldn't even guess that i wasn't working as of now. But it was just kinda of one of those things that help whip you into shape. I mean i think i allowed myself to get overwhelmed with the situation. But i'm done with that. "seek ye first...".

Anyway, day went pretty smooth. Church was good, grabbed some grub with some good friends and then hit up the tennis court for about two hours (or more actually). Time went by fast out there. I definitely feel like i'm getting better. My serve is getting a little more feel to it and i was able to get a number of good backhands in. The forehand had great moments, i'm looking forward to working on it some more.
Cowboys lost their playoff game and Saints won theirs. I don't really have a team to root for anymore since my patriots got whacked by Baltimore. Anyway, NFL is for the birds! lol.

On more important front, 24 is back! First show was pretty good. They've got this whole US v Iran kinda thing going. looks to be interesting. I think it'll be better than last season (hopefully) especially since "sweaty" garafollo isn't on this season. Heh!


Sunday, January 17, 2010

The Wait is Over

What's up blog world? It's been a minute, no maybe i should say it's been ages. Different reasons for that, which i'm sure i'll detail but not all, not right now at least. it's almost two o'clock in the morning, got church in the AM but dude, i really can't sleep. I'm somewhat stressed out but I'm trying not to be. As you may know i've been debating my next steps in life, it's getting a tad dizzy out here. I think that's playing into my lack of sleep. It's been like that the last few nights, i've eventually fallen asleep but it's been taking more than usual. And usual is not a short time either. I'm doing my best not to be worried, prayed about it and put it in God's hands but i can't deny the fact that it's starting to bother me a good amount.

I've been applying for jobs that i think are pretty adequate for me and what i'm looking for, including my caliber, asking pay and role criteria. I've even applied for some that i would assume i'm overqualified for but it's awfully quiet out there. Although i have heard a few noises lately, i'm hoping those noises get louder. But the last couple of days, i can't figure out if the whole situation is just getting to me but i'm starting to feel i need to do something. I really have little to no idea what that something is but i just have this feeling like something needs to be done. I don't know if it's my natural self wanting to somehow take control of the situation, which i honestly don't want to do because i've put it in God's hands but sheesh dude. It's like what to do? I've had thoughts about the whole grad school shindig, which i definitely want to do eventually but i just don't feel like it's the right time. Most of the schools i would want to apply to would like me to have at least 2years of work experience. Unless i go the MS and then MBA route later; i mean if it comes to that fine but i don't really see that as such a great strategy but hey who am i to say. Anyhow, i talked to the mom about the whole grad school gmat about a week or so ago so maybe that's what got me thinking crazy. who knows?
Like i said, i just feel like i need to change strategy. But i just added a new thing to my job search business. I started following up applications with phone calls, that's helped a bit but i got an e-mail from one that might be interested saying no calls (this is after i had already called and left a voicemail). Heh! I read the e-mail and i'm like "good to know"...after the fact. Actually a legit opportunity, she needs to holla at me. On a more serious note, i've been networking at least trying to, keeping up with previous contacts and such, there are very few things that i'm not doing at the moment that i can think of. I guess i need to broaden the horizon. I don't know if it's time for a more radical step but i don't think i'm ready for that and I honestly don't think that's in His plan for now. As much as I don't know and I'm still waiting for the right door to open, i kinda discern that "that" ain't it, at least for now.
I know and understand His using this time to teach me something. as obama would say, "this is a teachable moment", it's always a teachable moment for us not him. Anyway, i believe God is using this time to do some work in me, some of which i have and can definitely identify. But i'm ike c'mon God let's get moving to the next phase. But who am i to rush Him. All in all i'm staying positive and believing that something good is right around and i'm turning the corner. Thy Will Be Done.

Let me try to catch some snooze...